Your Little Mind Games

by Leanne Catlin
(Scotland)

Here alone and sad I lie
Through my many fears I cry
Trying to crab hold of the many grains
Trying to dodge your little mind games

Hear me scream my heart away
As you treat me like a stray
You feel the torture within
As it hides under my skin

My eyes can see into your soul
It notes down the giant hole
Make me fall as I grow weak
When I land you hear me sqweak

Listen to me beg and plead
Trying to make you feel my need
Can't you see my heart is broken
Tears are words which can't be spoken

Try and look me in the eye
As you tell your flithy lie
Saying that you love me so
Don't you know thats an all time low

Hear my sad life as I preach
Preach for my soul to reach
Let me down as I tried
Don't you know we have all lied

You think you know how I feel
As I want to make this real
Tried to see through all life's lies
Sitting here I feel dispised

Fallen to me knees I scream
"Fell my mercy and my dream"
Every wish should come true
Every wish dies in you

I try to dry my tears away
Beg and scream for you to stay
Lifes a just a huge fantasy
A fantasy that makes you leave

A I sit here in the dark
Thinking of your painful mark
How much you hurnt me so
How I made you get up and go

Looking at the round I fear
It will soon be covered in tears
You managed to get in my head
Locked me up and left me till death

My tears are running down me face
As my heart now feels erased
I forgot the risk, took the fall
But was it really worth it all

I feel like your broken dream
As I sit here, feeling unseen
In this place I feel so much shame
Thinking about your dreadful name

I now know that you didn't care
I spent my life wishing you were there
I now know you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Here alone and sad I lie
Through my many fears I cry
Trying to crab hold of the many grains
Trying to dodge your little mind games