RED TEARS!!!!!

by Jessica Arnold
(Prescot, Merseyside, England)

Trapped.
Why is everythign so hard?
Red, I like red
dripping down my arm
Encircling my life
red is my life
It is love and life
My love is running out of me
Losing my life in the red.
Seasons change, but my life goes dully, redly on
What is the piont?
Why am I here?
Am I here to make others miserable?
Am I here to suffer?
Am I here to make myself suffer?
If not, why do I do it?
Why am I compelled to ruin my own life and love?
Perhaps there is someting wrong.
Deep down
Genetically
I cannot feel;
Maybe I am lacking a chromosome
Or a gene
The happy gene
I think I had it once but I lost it
Someone took it away.