My life (of subject but I need help)

by Chiara
(virgnia)

Ever since I moved into my new apartment and school everything has changed. All the boys and girls in my class and other classes hate me and threten to beat me up. It hurts me soo much because the one who I depended on the most, Betrayed me....
Almost every night I wake up wondering "How did this all happen making me go away from my best friend in the whole wide world, Anna was ALWAYS there for me when I needed her. Why have I becomed depressed all the time? Will I EVER stop looking at murdered victimes with their guts hanging out and some of their skin peeled off revealing their skull? Will Jeffthe killer ever stop stalking me in my dreams? Not like its a problem or anything....."

Im only eleven and in elementary school going in sixth grade for fuckers sakes! I dont need to be drepressed... Pain will never go away.. Its all I ever felt...... Iv messed with demons, homemade wigi board, black magic.
My so called "friends" dont like to hang out with me because of the way I act. I mean I admit I do have an evil side, I always have.... But my good side is gone..... for good....

All I ever wanted was to be is LOVED. But Im never gonna get that.
I dont tell anyone the pain I hide inside because noone will ever understand me.
I had a dream of Jeff the killer wanting to get me, but not kill me. My mom said in the dream that she had to give him money so he would leave. I could see his face soo clearly.... that big bloody smile and eyes that never close....
IM NOT SCARED!
If he tourchers me right before, right before I die, I wont cry or pleed for the pain to stop, I'll like it and beg for more..... Untill me heat gives out and I passout with my blood all over the room....

My soul has faded for I am forever called....

-mostlonlyestgirlintheworld-

I am saying again please help....