All this pain was caused by you

by Farrah.L
(New Jersey, NJ)

All this pain was caused by you,
All these tears
Are all because of you,
All These scars,
Are all for you.
All your empty promises never did come true.
As all those promises cut me deeper then your lies.
All my pain was caused by you,
All i want is to forget you.
Why i can't its so simple,
I see your face day after day,
I hear your voice,
I see you smile at her,
All i want is to run and cry.
You walk by,
And i fall to pieces
I see your face again,
Again i want to cry.
Every memory i had with you,
Flood back into my mind.
All the happy times,
i always believed they would go on forever,
And every memory make me want to cry,
Right there in front of you.
Because Every Kiss,
Every Touch,
Every Promise,
Were all a lie.
Every moment i had with you,
Is now forgotten.
Now that im alone again,
Im lying in this dark room sprawled on the floor.
Blood pouring out,
The slices on my wrists,
Your name carved in my arm,
This knife in my hand,
I close my eyes squeezing them tightly shut.
A single tear escaping my closed lids,
behind my closed eyes i see your face,
I hear your laugh,
I feel your Kiss,
I smell your Scent,
My last memory will be of you.
I take up the knife,
Its at my throat,
And with one slice,
I float above.
Im lost within the darkness,
that has always surrounded my life,
Ill never see the light.
I loved you, You knew i did.
Now that im gone. You finally got your wish.
Because now i know you NEVER LOVED ME.